Okay, I would like to share some thoughts with the small online blog hoping that neither any of my friends will stumble upon this.
Yes. I’m having drama with my friends. Like pretty bad drama to the point I’m moving away from them because I don’t feel included or loved and even ignored. It’s alright because I’m used to it. She wasn’t a true friend and never will be. I thought this was the one friendship that would last, however, I thought wrong. I feel so useless, unimportant and I’m just laughing about it. I apologise if i sound crappy or anything like that but its just its hard to keep it in without crying constantly. She doesn’t care at all. I’m like second best and I won’t accept this at all.
This is unfair if I put 100% in the friendship where she puts like less than 50%.
That’s it. I’m done.
I’m terribly sorry for neglecting my blog.
I’m so busy I have not time for myself to write at all. Senior year is hard and can be distracting from the things I like to do, like to write.
However a few things have been a delight during my absence on this blog which I am more than happy to share with you guys.
I discovered this Australian magazine through one of my best friends from school. It’s called frankie and its 100% my aesthetic. Here is the website. There is cool bits and bobs and its very entertaining (visually haha) Please reply down in the comments on what you think 🙂 Now I’m dedicated in collecting all the issues! Recently the website had a issue sale resulting in almost all of the old issues being sold out 😦 So far I have 3 issues of frankie sitting on my bookshelf. The covers are also often pretty and nice to look at, like everything from the site.
Reese chocolate peanut butter cups is the second best thing that I ever tasted this year (behind Cha time Guava Grapefruit frozen drink) Its a classic American chocolate snack that I wished I discovered earlier. (trying to eat in portions haha)
Recently I’ve visited my love for nature. I started to draw botanical drawings of plants and several insects like bees. Nature is beautiful and something we all take for granted. Posting my art on this blog is something I’m leaning towards. Planning on making a drawing scrapbook. The materials I use are copic markers, art paper and gel pens plus the most important tools; the eraser and pencil.
Feeling terribly sorry for neglecting the blog. So busy this year. Maybe next year I’ll post more frequently due to graduating from school 🙂
Summer is ending soon here in Australia and I’m sort of relieved and sad because I love the heat but I got tons of Autumn/Winter clothes. I wanted to post this because I know I would probably forget my goals for the upcoming seasons.
Personally, I think having goals is a good thing and is something to look forward to achieve (make sure its realistic though!). Its a lot like New Years resolutions except people actually complete more goals then resolutions! LOL Well I certainly did.
Here are my goals for Summer/Autumn 2017:
- Get fit. (I need exercise and need to get fit. They said you lose more weight in the winter because your body generates more heat to keep you warm??)
- Eat well (I’m guilty for this because I’ve been eating more junk food and letting myself go wild without a restriction. It’s terrible I know)
- Do less unnecessary shopping (To be honest its more to buy things I need not I want)
- Study hard and effectively (I’m no stranger when it comes to procrastination. I want get stuff done)
- Make more friends (Its always good to open yourself to different people and not be stuck with one friendship group)
- Be more positive! (This is something I am working on and it will be rewarding in the end)
Those are the goals I can think on the top of my head but I’m pretty sure there is more but I probably forgot or its just pretty minor.
Hopefully this motivates any of your to create goals for the upcoming months and even possibly years. (I’m not the best motivational person but you know where I’m coming from haha)
Today was a cold and windy day which arrived after a beautiful hot day yesterday. However just as a promised I provided a photo of my new journal/diary where I write my deepest darkest secrets. Haha, I was just kidding. I just wrote entries of my day and emptying my thoughts onto this slab of paper.
It looks so old but really it’s not
This week was eventful but nothing worth mentioning happened. Just got some thoughts thinking what if that or this happened. I started daydreaming about being internet famous or just travelling the world to my favourite countries. Living in the worlds most liveable city, I’m super grateful. I would still like to explore the world and the wonders of the world. How cool would that be?
This upcoming week will be hectic busy. I would be studying for exams and preparing to open a shop where I can sell my clothes or any random things 🙂 (They need a home guys!) Also, this week is performance week for my band at school 🙂 Super duper excited! I’m on the keyboard and I practice heaps for it! It’s also my mothers birthday tomorrow so haha a family celebration will be taking place soon.
Again, the issue of friendships has been arising for me. Its like I have these thoughts that I am spending such a good time with them and so that my brain says all random negative crap about not having true friends or these friends will just leave you in the end. (Best to ignore this thoughts but make sure you realise having negative thoughts is normal!) Hoping the best to come to all of you! And if you followed me thank you so much! 🙂
Hope you like my blog and posts!
“Where dreams happen”
Beside the point that today is Halloween and almost an end to my long school weekend, I have a few announcements to make!
Today is the day where I received my journal!! (Will post picture later in another blog post which is dedicated to writing/journals) Although it looks printed, it was still pretty and I treasured it a lot. I haven’t been neglecting this blog but things have been busy. (again with exams but I find it a hard time trying to study for them)
Things I need to say before I forget: otherwise known as announcements (not much but the first one is the one which I’m most excited about!!!)
- I’m creating an eBay shop/Depop shop to sell some of my clothes that needs a new home 🙂 (I’ll provide the link later maybe late or early December) I’m super excited for this! I hope people buy things in my shop!
- Revealing holiday plans soon! (Photography ideas?) (Hoping for a trip to the beach for some photography which I will gladly post on this blog!)
A shop that I am looking forward in to buying things is: The Jacks
Their candles are so cute and edgy and I’m dying to get the black deer with a yellow candle. Please check out their website! (It’s pretty awesome)
That’s all for today! Happy Halloween (If you are in Australia/other parts in the world that is ahead of US)